I want to overlook
the mistakes I made in my past
and start over with a blank sheet,
except in doing so,
there will always be a hidden layer neglected
and a fresh start infected,
I’m just stuck dealing with my scribbled sheet
Could I easily erase the pain that was written in ink?
Forcing the eraser across my page
hoping my past thoughts in my brain could no longer sync
each and every day I’m constantly adding to this paper
never regretting my choices,
but sometimes wishful about my memory
forgetting some of the voices
I wonder, would wite out work to help me?
Would I be able to wite out the memories of us,
but attempt to keep the good?
Would I be able to get rid of the time you cheated,
but remember the times you made me smile?
Would that be any good for me?
I want to overlook the times I was sad
thinking that world was ending
and that everything was doomed to go bad
it seemed as if the pain was never ending
and my feelings were constantly bleeding,
so here I am pretending that past isn’t here
could I wite out the mistakes I made
and write out what should’ve been done?
Let’s say it worked,
the wite out has formed a layer
across my scribbled sheet
making it appear freshly new from a far,
but up close are presented the scars
could the past finally be forgotten?
Although the layer is hidden
my past will always be smitten
always trying to catch up
and undress itself with thee
the wite out is no longer in use,
I’m just stuck being me.