I’m not going to say
deep down inside it doesn’t hurt me
because it does
the thought of losing you makes my mind cringe
it makes me second think every decision I made
because am I sane enough to give it all up?
or is it me protecting my heart for the long-run?
I swore the last time I saw you, it’ll be it
that our initial goodbyes would be the last time
but we’re two ex-lovers still compelled to one another
I’m not sure when to cut our ties
or even if it’s possible after the many tries
I’m assuming our souls are connected somehow, right?
It’ll be easy to just walk away and erase the pain
be forgetful about everything that was created,
but this immense attraction
the always craving has me circling down a dark hole
that I never thought I’ll be chasing
could I just cut the strings and stop the wasting of time?
How did I assume we were soulmates
when did our lustful actions say otherwise?
I was addicted to your love language
as I lied to everyone I knew
because how do you go back to the same person
who hurt you?
and no, I don’t regret any of the lies,
nor the pain or the envy I despised
it’s my growth that’s the ultimate prize
and I’ll respect that life will be different between our eyes
and yes, I hope you find that love your chasing
and I come to the acceptance to the sins I started erasing
just don’t fuck up because our souls are mysteriously connected
and lost to you, would be one to me too.