I pledge allegiance to my peace of mind
to my mental health that’s more important
then constantly being abused all the time
always with the hopes of someone changing for the better
it’s my kindness betrayed,
my heart that’s enslaved,
leaving my mind to resonate with staying in character.
It was easier to play the role, so
instead of me wishing away the pain
I always begged for it to stay
instead of learning for the situation
I would allow the situation to make me
instead of putting myself first
I was last and even more at risk of being hurt.
I’m learning in order to progress
I’ll have to start putting myself more ahead
that the quicker I can say fuck it
could leave many words left unsaid
and waiting for others to change is like
taking a laxative yet only feeling constipated in bed
that my sanity is more important
than always handing out second chances
so, I’m done allowing the simplest shit to bypass
because I owe it to myself to gain my own self-respect.